I’d thought Jake had been healing the hole in me—or at least plugging it up, keeping it from hurting me so much. I’d been wrong. He’d just been carving out his own hole. I wondered why I didn’t crumble into pieces. Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.273

I was in love with him. Too. I loved him, much more than I should, and yet, still nowhere near enough. I was in love with him, but it was not enough to change anything; it was only enough to hurt us both more. To hurt him worse than I ever had.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.113

I wished I could feel numb again, but I couldn’t remember how I’d managed it before.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.528